Today was a poop on a book kind of day

Literally...  Mr. Bruce pooped on it. Mmmhmmm.... that happened. After rereading some of my old posts I saw the post about Karen Kingsbury's Let Me Hold You Longer, and immediately ordered it for myself . It's such a sweet little children's book about a mothers love for her child and remembering all the lasts as they grow. Bruce, apparently had a different feeling about all that.
Had I found it this morning I would've taken it as the bad omen it was and called it a pajama, movie day. That would be that, I wouldn't try to get Leona's room finally clean, again, catch up on housework, or have any agenda at all. But I didn't, I found it right before bedtime, in between deep breaths of frustration and pajama negotiations.
I'm not complaining, really, I completely understand how crazy blessed we are to have been trusted with these three amazing people. But dang, it can be so hard some days right?
I mean today EVERYTHING  was a battle, little things, things that don't usually cause them to bat an eye was a struggle. No one one warns you about the countless times you will deep breath yourself out of a room or through a conversation. No one says "Hey, you know your daughter is going to test you beyond all one day and flat out REFUSE pick up her room, and then as you step out of her room for the umpteenth time you're heart will ache for her, because of the sadness and frustration you know she's feeling." And for sure you never think about what you're going to do when at Target your toddler refuses to sit in the cart, your oldest brought snuck in a book so is begging to ride in the cart and your daughter has chosen to cheer on her little brother as he runs wildly through the store. Right, We don't really talk about all that crazy, not out loud, not outside our closest ring of confidants, (if we're so lucky to have that)
So yeah, dang, motherhood is hard. And on a day like today it's really really hard. But then, I know there has to be a God and yes he is for sure one of humor and mercy because he sends me perfect moments like these ones all captured today.

And I know tomorrow will be a new day, a better day. And today is just one day of countless days.
















So I'll keep on taking those deep breaths, and soaking up every moment before it passes me by. Because as frustrating as it was still is because Leona just came out, again, 90 minutes after I 1st told her to go to bed. to say a million times to please go back to bed and go to sleep. I secretly love it, when Ivan comes out once again for a goodnight hug and kiss and pretends to have his eyes shut.

 "For come some bright fall morning, you'll be going far away. College life will beckon in a brilliant sort of way. One last time to understand just how much you will be missed. I'll watch you leave and think how fast our time together passed." Karen Kingsbury

 If you're interested in grabbing a copy of this sweet book, here's a link to Karen's page.
Karen Kingsbury